I want to start with the title: "The Ramblings of a 20 Something". This carries much more meaning than just your catchy marketing major generated title. I am a full year older, and have had a full year more of experiences. With that being said, there are things I've always wanted to do BEFORE I hit the ripe old age of 20. That is two decades people. Think of how much the world has changed in two decades. Hell, think about how much it's changed in the last year. While a lot of these wants are petty and childish, they are important to someone who has never done them. I may get into what exactly those are later in this blog, if I chose to continue or even publish it.
I want to start off with a quote that came to me while trying to talk a little sense in to my brother. "Success isn't excelling. Success is the mindset of never settling." I think the world needs to hear and understand this. Too many people today believe that if you are not achieving at the highest point society tells you should, that they are failing. This is not the case. You can fail a homework assignment 99 times in a row, but as long as you get up, brush yourself off, and start that assignment for the 100th time, you are not failing. Success doesn't come from accomplishment, it comes from your mindset.
Complacency is the enemy to success. Never be satisfied with where you are at. This does and should not mean do not be thankful for what you have. Take moments to appreciate what's around you, but never settle for what is, always strive for what could be. Man kind did not evolve from where it started from being OK with where we were at. It's the minds who constantly wondered looking for new theories, new ideas of what could be that got us to where we are today. The bottom line is, never let the fear of lack of accomplishment, keep you from the thirst of success.
With that being said, the second thing I want to talk about in the grand opening of this new blog is fear. I'm not talking about the "clowns, spiders, and everything in the closet" fear, I'm talking about true fear. Fear that comes with life experience. Fear of being alone. Of uncertainty of where your life might take you. Of how your past might impact your future. A wise very prominent man once said "the only thing to fear, is fear itself", and I can completely agree with that. However; getting over fear itself is daunting enough.
For me, it's the fear of being alone. I'm 20. 20, and I don't think I've ever had a relationship that meant something to me. I always complain about being alone, and people bring up pervious relationships and people around me who I may not be romantically attracted to but that's the thing. I know there's nothing stopping me from eradicating the fear of being alone in this world. But that doesn't mean that fear doesn't still exist. I don't know what it is or what it will take, but for me, nothing seems to carry any substance when it comes to a relationship. Too many times I do it for the wrong reasons. Does this mean I have a problem? Maybe, but that's not for me to decide. I can't tell you how hard it is to struggle to find the meaning in all of this. I truly envy the ignorant, because it is truly bliss. They do not have fear, because they do not ask questions. Maybe I ask to many. But again, I think that comes with what I perceive to be success, the thirst to avoid complacency. I never stop asking questions of why or what if because I'm not satisfied with the relationships I have. But is that such a bad thing?
I guess my views are conflicting, because while I think it is imperative that we ask questions, but I also think it is the main reason why I cannot find true happiness and peace of mind. That is one of the biggest mysteries I am currently faces with in my life. Where do I find the balance of being happy, and being aware. My mind is a tricky thing I suppose. I really don't know what I want. I surmise that that is something most 20 somethings will tell you. We really don't know what we want. But I can tell you one thing, what I have, is not what I want. But I guess these are just Ramblings of a 20 Something.
